Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Wait

Wait

It’s 7PM and I’m sitting in my office waiting for a guy to call me. Is that pathetic or what? I should be out there living, feeling doing- not waiting. Not waiting by the phone in hopes that my plans will pan out.

I should be grabbing the bull by the horns and taking charge of my dating / social life. Instead, here I am, like in idiot sitting in my office waiting for a guy- and a married guy at that. I haven’t mentioned this guy before, He’s a work colleague. Today he asked me out in such a casual way that it could hardly classify as an event – let alone a date. I call him Phil Petrol...

I can hear Wanda now saying, “Get out of there. Go home. Go Swimming. Go look after your little doggie, but do not wait for this guy to call. Have you not learned anything from the BFE debacle?”

And yes, I’ve learned SO MUCH from the BFE thing. In fact, I'm pleased to share one of the I’ve learned. Perhaps this is common sense, and perhaps I should have probably already have known it, but last weekend I really realized it.

On Saturday evening I had net sex with a married guy. The DG, for those of you keeping track. I like the DG. I like him as a mate. I respect him as a former colleague. I like his attitude about life. I also fancy the pants off him! And the fact that he bares a more-than vague resemblance to the BFE probably helps as well. I frequent think about him tying me up and eating me out. He’s definitely someone I want in my bed. And we’ve fooled around before, but nothing major.

During our netsex session he was telling me how there are some positions and activities that he wants to try with me. I realize now that this is all talk; all fantasy. He doesn’t want to leave the safety net of his wife. To him, I’m like that one flavour of ice-cream at Baskin Robbins that you say, “One day I’m gonna try that” but ultimately you don’t because you don’t want to betray your favourite standby flavour. (Vanilla, most likely).

The thing is, I like him. I like him a lot. And to him, I’m a savoury sweet—once he’s had his taste, he’s had his fill and he’s gone. If we ever did end up having sex it would mean so much more to me in my head than it would to him. To him, I would be the girl he fucked.

I think that was my key mistake with the BFE. I liked him too much. I wanted him, and he wanted sex. Perhaps if we had a meeting of the minds things would have gone smoother. Of course I fooled myself to think that I was only in it for the sex – but as women can we really do that? Is it possible to ‘just fuck’ and feel nonchalant about it?

Men have a way of cutting off that emotion; that emotion that says, “You are a great fuck and you’re someone I could care for at some point” But I find it incredibly difficult. This is something that I am just realizing now.

It’s 7:50 now and my gut tells me to grab my Oyster card and hightail it out of here; that there is no good to come of this situation. I should go home now, while my dignity is in tact. Or I could possibly suffer the indignity of being stood up.

On the other hand I’ve already applied my lipstick. If I don’t go out, I just won’t know what I’m missing.

What would you do?

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Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Invoking the 3-week Rule

From I guy I've been trying to meet up for drinks with since November:

Hey Anjelika

Couple of things, first my big pitch meeting is tomorrow so will have to cancel tonight - very sorry for late notice and I will make it up to you with wine a plenty :-)

Secondly, do you get to vote in these election things that are happening in the states?

Speak soon

x


My cool-as-a-cucumber reply:

Hey don't worry about it. Let's put it off indefinitely. I have a 3-week rule when it comes to making plans. Sorry if that sounds harsh, but it shouldn't really take that long to meet up.

I haven't applied for an absentee ballot. Maybe I will for the presidential election, but either candidate is fine with me.

-Anjelika

Funnily enough, I never heard back from him. In a way it's a shame, because I did want to have drinks for him, but if it were at all a priority for him, he would have made it happen. I'm not gonna cry over split milk. I'm just gonna move on.

I like having minimum standards. I like, even better, that I can stick with them.

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Sunday, July 29, 2007

Don't Come on My Face (book)

Wanda and Anjelika discuss:

Big Scotish Cocks
Turned on by Animals
Blanking Pete Burns
How to Flirt Sucessfully
CS flirting with Anjelika
Anjelika flirting with her professor
Best Books to take on Holiday
"Brighton Rock" - Graham Green
"The Full Montezuma" - Peter Moore
"Lolita" - Vladimir Nabokov
Daniel Radcliffe
Dreaming about the DG

The UK's #1 Sex Podcast
Naive London Girl

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Sunday, March 25, 2007

Cum in my Hair: Finger Fucked in Mayfair

Cum in my Hair: Finger Fucked in Mayfair

I’ve been thinking a lot about the Chaos Theory.

For the first time this year I actually felt sad immediately after a very good sexual experience.

A few weeks ago Wanda asked me to go with her and another friend to a sex party at Club Rub. Despite my wicked past, I’m not into orgies. Yeah, of course I have had a few but with people I know. There seems something a bit weird and sleezy about group sex with people you don’t know. At the same time, it also seems really exciting. I’m too chikenshit to partake but I figured it would be a good experience just to watch.

Last week I started thinking about the party. I was beginning to change my mind. I called into the radio station LBC during Iain Lee’s show asked on air what I should wear to the party.

As soon as I hung up from being on air a friend of mine rang. It was the same friend who delivered the nightie to CS. She said that just as she was leaving Eagle Eye’s party. Eagle Eye got a job at a rival network and was having a leaving do.

I decided to go to the party. I realized that I may be entering enemy territory as far as CS was concerned, but I sort of didn’t care. The only problem was that I was wearing a really horrible jumper. That morning something told me to wear a skirt to work. But since the cute guy was away on holiday I figure not point in making the effort, eh?

It was nearing 9:00 and all the department stores were closed. In a moment of genius I found the nearest branch of my gym went in and bought a severely overpriced pink long-sleeved pink Nike shirt. I would have paid twice the price for it as long as I looked good at the party.

In the gym locker room, I put on the shirt and a bit of make up. I spritzed my hair with water ran back to my car. I drove around the block before and found parking on a side street not too far from the pub.

All eyes turned to me as I entered the pub with my dog. A few old colleges let out a little squeal, “Oh Anjelika!” It feels good to be welcomed. I almost felt like Norm from “Cheers.”

Even though I hated working on that World War II documentary, I really missed the people I worked with. Stephanie was there and looked fantastic as usual. CS was there as well. I knew he’d be there. Eagle Eye is one of his best mates. CS and I both actively avoided each other. I don’t think we were ever on the same side of the room at the same time. The weird thing is, I didn’t care. I totally didn’t care. I stared at him from across the room and he no longer seemed good-looking to me. He seemed boring and blah. There was no mystery to him. His hair didn’t look good either. His dashing blond hair was brown and dull.

This time last year he and I were kissing in Prague. Amazing how things change in a year/

A few face were missing from the party. D-Mac wasn’t there. Apparently he left a few minutes before I arrived. BKFITW quit the month before and the Cockblocker had fucked off back to Australia.

As I was making my rounds through the pub and catching up with various old co-workers, I spotted the DG from across the room. Our eyes met and I smiled back at him. He made his way through the crowded pub towards me. We embraced. He gave me kiss on both cheeks and asked if I wanted a drink. I was driving that night and Doggums was with me and I couldn’t figure out if I wanted to drink or not. There was part of me that wanted to be drunk and silly. Yet the other part of me needed to be responsible.

The DG was good. He seemed like his normal cheery self. I remember hating my job then, but looking forward to seeing him smile and say hello to me. It’s funny how you get used to things and how you can as easily get un-unsed to things.

While the DG was getting my drink, I talked to my old buddies in production. Everyone seemed well and happy. No drams, no gossip. It was good to catch up and feel like one of the gang again.

The DG returned with a glass of wine for me. He put his arm around me and gave me a squeeze.

“You look really good.” He said.

“Oh thanks,” I replied, not really taking in his compliment.

“No, you look really good.”

I smiled back. Thank God I bought this overpriced pink shirt instead of wearing that monstrosity of a jumper. I’m sure he wouldn’t be saying that I looked good then.

The DG and I continued talking about work. Out of the corner of my eye I saw CS trying to kiss Jaz, while a small crowd was egging him on. I had wondered if he were doing this to make me jealous but I kept thinking. Been there. Done that. Why bother kissing him in public when he can eat me out in private. I rolled my eyes and refocused on the DG.

The DG was saying how he’d been looking for me online all week, but I wasn’t there. “Oh yeah.” I said quite flippantly, “I’ve been busy, you know”

“I’ve been thinking about you. A lot. I miss you around the office. Come back and work here.”

“Let me know if there’s a position available.”

I put my arm around him. We embraced. Out of the corner of my eye I see CS pointing a video camera in our direction. I give CS a pointed look then turn my attention back to the DG.

The DG puts his hand around my waist. I pull away knowing that CS is filming.

“We’re being filmed.” I whisper to him. The DG turns around
“Let’s move towards the back.”

As we squeeze our way to the back of the pub Doggums tries to follow. I pick her up just so she won’t feel scared from all the people towering over her.

As we squeeze by the DG accidentally brushes against might left breast.

“Oh, so I bet you’re going to tell me that was an accident, eh?”

He smiles. “Accidents happen. Do you remember that time when I accidentally touched your boob.”

“A few seconds ago?”

“No, when you first started working here. We were here in the pub. There were only 3 of us here.”

“No. Still doesn’t ring a bell.”

“I brushed up against you, accidentally. And you pointed it out and said I did it on purposes.”

I stare at him as if he’s tyring to tell me something compeltley untrue.

“I’m sorry I don’t remember. Well, that’s when I first fancied you.”

“Oh my god?!? You fancy me?” I say genuinely surprised and in a hushed tone.

“Of course I do.”

I feel shocked. I mean I know he liked flirting with me, but I put it off as him being a big flirt. I didn’t realize that he actually fancied me.

“Well, I have a little confession of my own to make,” I say coyly, “I have a little bit of a crush on you too.”

I set Doggums down on the ground and the DG and I hug again. I hope no one here is keeping track of the amount of hugs that we’ve shared this evening so far.

Doggums gets starts barking and I feel like I should go home.

I look at the clock on the wall. “What time are you catching the train?” I ask him.

He’s vague, “Oh yeah, I’m just catching a late one. They run all night. Did you take the train here?”

“No I drove.”

“Ah.”

“Have you seen my car?”

“In pictures, not in person.”

“You have to see it. It’s fab.”

I pick up Doggums with one hand and carried my glass of wine with the other. We all squeezed our way to the front of the pub. We exit the pub. Strangely it’s a warm winter night. Feels like spring. It’s one of those nights were it’s just warm enough that you don’t need a coat.

I set Doggums down and the DG and I walked around the corner to my car.

“Very nice,” he says.

I set my wine glass on the curb and follows suit with his beer glass.

“I was going to get a Volkswagon Polo, but I thought this suited my personality more.”

“I love the color. It really does suit you.”

“Thanks.”

And in a moment of shared madness, I turned towards him, looked into his eyes and moved my mouth towards his. We kissed. It was slow. Passionate. Beautiful. He cupped his hands around my face as we kept kissing. It was awesome.

There’s nothing better than kissing someone you fancy for the first time. Shit, that kiss I had with the BFE on our first state has to be one of the best kisses ever. My kiss with the DG is a contender for the top three.

In the middle of kissing I suddenly had a reality check:
A. He’s married
B. We’re a stones throw from the pub and anyone could see us
C. He’s a friend who I admire and respect.
D. His poor wife

Then out of nowhere, my morals, which had been on a semi-permanent vacation kicked in.

“We shouldn’t be doing this,” I said. “We can’t do this.”

I backed away. He pleasant and respectful in agreeing with me. As I went to pick up my wine glass to head inside I said to him,

“Don’t get me wrong, kissing you is great but, it’s just….”
“I know…”
“But if it’s any consolation, I’m really, really wet now.”

Before I can pick up my glass he grabs my hand and we start running down the empty street. Doggums follows. We turn the corner into an alleyway. He backs me into a brick wall grabbing both my hands, and kisses me.

“God, you’re so beautiful,” he says.

He kisses me fervently and even though one or two people walk past we don’t care. He lets go of my hands and I take his glasses off his face setting them down carefully. We continue kissing. I wrap my arms around him and he wraps his arms around me.

It all feels amazing and then my morals kick in again. And even though I don’t want to stop. I have to. He seems understanding. I pick up his glasses for him. We walk back to my car. We pick up our wine / beer glasses and head back inside the pub.

I suddenly felt so weird. As if, I were in some parallel universe. I couldn’t believe this was happening. I never imagined a day where I’d be making out with the DG. I chatted with a gay pal, the Impaler for a bit. He looked good.

“So does the DG still fancy your boobs. Especially in blue satin?
“Shhhhh! Dude. That’s a secret and he’s right behind us!”

I feel totally weirded out. Out of the corner of my eye I saw CS a few feet from me. He was sitting down at the table with his head buried in his hands. I almost felt something for him then. There’s something cute about a guy being vulnerable. Whatever it was I quickly snapped out of it.

“I’m going home.” I announced. It just felt too weird being there. Being there with the DG who I just made out with. And CS who I used to make out with. It was as if my past, present and future were all there at once.

I put on my coat and waved bye to the DG.

“You’re leaving?”
“Yeah, I gotta go” I answered.
“Wait for me. Just wait 15 minutes.”

I looked at the clock on the wall.

“Okay.”

I spent another 15 minutes chatting with Stephanie, Fred and the Impaler. As the last call bell sounded more and more people left the pub.

The DG and I were among the last to go. He asked me for a ride to Kings Cross. I said yeah.

Having a 2-seater cer is great. It means that you never have to offer a ride to more than one person. And even though there were a couple more people who needed to go to Kings Cross, they would just have to take the Northern line..

I put the dog and the dog bed in back. The DG and I got in the car and began the short drive to Kings Cross.

In the car he reaching over and kissing my ear and neck. It felt good. Fuck it felt so good. At the red lights we’d turn and kiss. I used to hate couples I’d seen doing that, now I was one of them. I started to lose my concentration on the road.

“I’m going to have to pull over,” I told him.

I looked for a quiet deserted street where we could park. Ironically enough, it happened to be in Mayfair.

On a dark, tranquil street I pulled the car over. We continued kissing, but quickly it progressed. He lifted my shirt up and reached for my breast. He released my left breast from my pink bra and began sucking on it. He nibbled my nipples just the right way. I almost came from the way he nibbled on them.

We continued our kissing and I reached for his belt buckle furiously unfastening it. I reached down his pants and found his cock. It was rock hard. I somehow felt victorious finally getting it. For a cock it was beautiful. Pristine and uncut. I assumed the position and place my mouth just on the head of his cock. I suckelekd it just a bit before lounging it down my throat. .

He began breathing heavily and sighing with pleasure. The car windows steamed up. I cupped his balls with my right hand.

I sucked him off until he was at breaking point. Then I strategically stopped.

I unbuckled my jeans. He pulled down my pink panties and began fingering me. With the small amount of space in the car it was hard to get into a good position to get fingered. So I didn’t cum. But I somehow didn’t mind.

I wanted to mount him but he insisted that we didn’t fuck. I sure wanted to even thought I knew it was wrong.. He rubbed his cock against my pussy but didn’t dare enter.

I sucked him off. He played with my boobs for a bit more. Then I gave him a hand job and he came on my tits.

The amount of cum that landed on my body was amazing. Probably a record as far as the guys I’ve been with goes.

He was silent after he came. The atmosphere was weird. It’s as if we’ve both been though some strange experience. As if we were war buddies walking back to the base after a humiliating defeat.

We drove on to Kings Cross. He kissed me passionately again before he got out of the car.

It all would been romantic if I didn’t have cum stuck in my hair.

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

There's Nowhere in Mayfair to get Finger Fucked

There's Nowhere in Mayfair to get Finger Fucked

I should know. I had a failed attempt there a couple days ago. I met up with the DG of the DG not to be confused with the DG (If that makes any sense). I guess I should explain.

The DG is a doppelganger of the BFE
The DG of the DG is a doppelganger of the DG

In other words, they all sort of look alike.

I am using some hyperbole here. I'm using Doppelganger to mean vague or passing resemblance instead of it's literal mewing, "double" Anyhow if you knew me personally, you would see how this is in accord with my sense of humor.

Actually, it's quite funny. I haven't seen the DG of the DG in quite a while. When we met up, I didn't recognize him at first. You think I would eh, since he looks like two other people I know!

I digress.

The DG of the DG and I were both dying to get in each others pants. Just thinking about him going down on me got me all wet. I had to pick up my dog before I met him. So not only were we both dying to get in each other pants, there was a small highly excitable lap dog suspiciously eying up him up.

The three of us walked all around Bond Street and Mayfair looking furiously for a dark corner; a dark alley, where he could pleasure me, and I could pleasure him.

We did find a dark alley for a few minutes, but it was behind a restaurant and proved not to be all that private. Even for that few minutes it was great feeling his cold fingers on my warm clit. I was so horny. Really, I just wanted to fuck him. It’s weird being horny sometimes. It’s like having an itch that MUST BE scratched. And then even after you scratch it you just want more.

The DG of the DG fingered me for a few minutes and then the dog got jealous. Steady now! He began barking and yelping and jumping up and down and wanted my attention. It’s hard getting finger fucked when there’s a small dog yelping at you.

After searching for another 15 minutes we gave up. I was looking for a tiny quiet street. It was after we went our separate ways that I found it. Derbyshire Court.

The BFE and I had some playful moments on Derbyshire Court (and the surrounding areas) at the beginning of the year. Thinking about it brings back some warm fuzzy memories. There were a lot of firsts that night. First date. First kiss. First shag. The kiss was particularly memorable. As our tongues met I was able to simultaneously reach down his trousers and put my hand on his balls; and I did it inconspicuously enough so that no one in the very expensive cocktail bar noticed. The amount of passion, desire and sexual tension between us was incredible. Probably the highest I felt all year. That will go down as one of the top ten best dates ever.

I remember I was wearing this really, really short black & pink tartan skirt with hold ups underneath. Even though it was January and freezing I wanted the BFE to have open access to my fanny. And in those cavernous walkways around Derbyshire Court he backed me into the wall, reached up my skirt, pulled aside my pink Victoria’s Secret thong and thrusts his hand into my pussy. Bliss.

Months later we ran each other through the emotional wringer. The situation had the potential to end very, very, very badly, but it didn’t. I’m so pleased with myself that I didn’t become “that bitch.”

You know who “that bitch” is. She’s that ex you had that deliberately made your life hell. She was immature, bossy and more importantly thought you deserved to suffer for the break up. I didn’t want to be that girl. More importantly, I didn’t want to lose a friend.

I’m just so incredibly pleased that there’s been a happy ending to this. Sort of like that Gwen Stefani song, “Cool” In any case I’m glad I have those warm fuzzy memories to look back on. And I’m happy that we’re still mates. Or as Gwen would say:

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool


Yeah, yeah, I know, song lyrics in blogs are lame. Mea culpa. That’s the last and only time.

Okay. It’s my bed time.

Peace Out!

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Monday, September 11, 2006

Net Sex with the DG

Net Sex with the DG

I don’t really like net sexing. I like when I know the guy. If some stranger tries to net sex me (e.g. on MSN) I am sooooooooooooo NOT INTERESTED.

When you know the guy, it’s great to know what turns him on.

So my innocent “hey what’s going on?” conversation with the DG on MSN Messenger turned really saucy.

The DG has a fetish. He likes big boobs in blue satin. What a strange and very particular fetish? Well ever since I found out about that months ago I have added tons of blue to my wardrobe. When I wore blue to work it was for the DG. When I wore pink it was for CS. Oh, btw CS sent me a text message the other day. Did I respond? No! Actually I did the next day, but I was like, “What do you want?” I’m still peeved at him for canceling our date a month ago. I never got to say goodbye to him. Blah anyhow who cares! I’m over him. Somehow the Keane song, “Leaving so Soon” comes to mind.

Anyhow, I digress. I sent the DG a pic of my boobs. And then I sent him another pic of me in a blue bra. I just really like hearing about how hard he was getting while looking at my tits. I like having that effect on guys. The DG was telling me that he hasn’t had sex in a few weeks because Mrs. DG has been sick. Poor guy.

One thing I really like about the DG, despite the fact that he’s married it’s obvious that he’s sooooo in love with his wife. I know. It looks strange, us netsexing. But we’re just having a bit of harmless fun and I would NEVER let it get physical. I would want it SO badly. But I wouldn’t do it. There just seems something wrong about me interfering with his happy marriage. Another thing I really like about him (compared to tons of other guys I’ve worked with) is that I’ve never heard him say anything negative about his wife. I dunno. They seem like a great team together. I admire that. They are both big parts of each others lives. The DG wouldn’t be the guy that it is today without Mrs. DG. I might get to Mrs. DG in a few weeks. I think that’s so cool. It would be great meet the woman behind the uber cool guy.

Anjelika says: Hey can I ask you a personal question?
The DG says: Yeah.
Anjelika says: If you were single would you make a move on me?
The DG says: (Pause) Yes. I’d love to touch your boobs.
Anjelika says: Really? That’s cool. That’s good information to know.
The DG says: I almost touched them once.
Anjelika says: Really? When?
The DG says: Remember that time we were in editing suite alone together?

I try to think, but I literally spent 70% of my time in the editing suite.

Anjelika says: Hmmmm that was a while ago. When was it?

The DG says: Not too long ago. I remember you were leaning forward, really close to me and I just wanted to touch them.

Anjelika says: Wow I had no idea. That’s so cool
.

Eventually, the convo gets downright dirty. I ask him what his cock looks like. I tell him what my shaved pussy looks like. I tell him to imagine that I’m sucking on his cock, cupping his balls, with a finger in his arse.

He came within a minute of me typing that.

Or so he said,

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Saturday, August 19, 2006

Wrong hands

I'm a bit happy because I saw the DG today. :-)

I had arranged via instant messenger to have lunch with my old team (sans the Minion).

My work had given me a laptop. I copied my old files on to a DVD. On my last day at work the previous Friday I made a copy of these files. I accidentally left the DVD in my laptop before I handed it back. Luckily I had a co-worker rescue the DVD. Now I could give a shit about old scripts and specifications I've written on the DVD. I really want the DVD back because almost every conversation I've had with the CS on it. No, I'm not coveting these conversations. I just don't want the to fall into the wrong hands.

I have nothing to be embarrassed about. I mean, look how open I am. CS, has a lot to potentially be embarrassed about. He's an asshole any how so I guess I shouldn't care if he's embarrassed or not. I actually don't care now who in the office knows about us now. Since I'm not there there to deal with the consequences. [evil grin]

Anyhow, there are a few saucy conversations that the DG and I had that I absolutely do not want to get out. He's a mate and I don't want to get him into any shit.

So I met my old team for lunch and to get the DVD back. The DVD, however, was locked in the desk of someone who was not there at work. So I'll have to come back again to get it.

Even before I met my old team, I saw on instant messenger that CS was working form home. That means no chance, as Franz Ferdiand would say, of "I time every journey to bump into you accidentally." So it kind of seems like fate that him and I won't see each other again. What can I do?

Anyhow I had lunch with my team. Then I met up the DG and talked with him for about 10 minutes. There's one fantastic thing that being away does: it makes the reunion extra special. So it was very nice seeing the DG again. Especially since I was greeted with a kiss on the lips and a hug. I noticed, the receptionist, BKFITW, raised an eyebrow as this happened.

Oh, I forgot to mention earlier this week that the DG did not give me the job. I did make it into the top three. So I'm totally pleased with myself. He needed a producer with more experience. I'm not mad or bitter or anything. I'm just pleased for him that he got the right candidate. I'm also glad that it did not put a strain on our friendship.

In other news I did get a new job. I start on Monday. It's more money, however its further outside of London than I like. It's an exciting project so I can't wait. It's a real boost to my career. It's only for 3 months but could develop into a lot more.

The job I accepted was so much better than the one I interviewed for with the DG. I think one reason I wanted the job with the DG is because where I worked was very social. Everyone liked me. I was the popular girl. That hasn't happened to me in a while, being the popular girl, that is. I was never the popular girl in high school. I was sacrificing my career because I wanted to be popular. I was afraid to make a move from my job even though I knew I deserved better. I was wiling to stay because being well-liked and popular was more important than advancing my career.

Now that I'm getting a mortgage, I guess it's time to move on. Anyhow, in the past year about 10 people have left at my old work. Stephanie left last week too. She was really one of my pals. I guess I have to look out for #1 first and now worry about what pals I have. It is difficult, however, when you're an immigrant and you only have your pals in this foreign land to rely on.

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