My Bloody Obsession

Is anyone else obsessed with their period?  I'm not obsessed in a sicko way.  But when things are out of wack, I am straight on Google trying to figure out what's going on with my body.

All my life with the exception of my very first period and when I had the flu freshman year, my periods have been as regular as clockwork.  I'm a 28-day cycle girl with an actual period that last 3 days.

For some reason, this year my period has gone all wacky.  And of course this wackiness started as soon as my met my boyfriend.  This menstrual weirdness is really stressful because my boyfriend and I aren't using birth control.

In June this year, seemingly out of the blue, I started spotting.  I never spot.  Never ever.  It wasn't enough spotting to wear a pad, but when I wiped it was obvious.  My period wasn't due for another 10 days. Two days later my boyfriend and I were in bed.  He was eating me out early one Sunday morning.  After we were done, I got up to feed the dog.

I entered the kitchen.  Suddenly I felt something let loose inside me.  I looked down and blood -- I mean a LOT of blood was streaming from my pussy.  There were no menstrual cramps or anything.  There was no pain.  It looked like I had been in a really bad accident.  A pool of blood was forming on the floor.  There were no clots in the blood.  I didn't understand what was going on.  Although the amount of blood tapered off, I kept bleeding for 7 days.  Much longer than my normal period.

I couldn't figure out what was going on.  In the back of my mind I was wondering if I had a miscarriage?  Surely that would be painful, right?  I had no pain.  Just lots of blood.

Twenty-Eight days later I was expecting my period.  It was late, really late.  Over a week late.  The sheer agony of having to wait for your period in between taking pregnancy tests (all negative) really made me re-think the birth control issue.

My boyfriend was so excited about the prospect of being a dad that he proudly marched into a pharmacy and declared that he wanted a pregnancy test for his "lovely girlfriend."  Meanwhile I felt like hanging my head in shame. I felt so embarrassed.  Not that pregnancy is anything to be embarrassed about but I guess I felt like a naughty teenager who had just been caught doing something wrong.

All 4 pregnancy tests I took were negative.  Finally after 10 days my period came.  Since then my period has been normal, until yesterday.

My period wasn't due for another 10 days but I started spotting again. Spotting is not normal for me.  This spotting was  different than the previous time it happened.  The spotting was brown.  A dab of it had shown up in my panties.  I spent a lot of time Google what it could be?  Implantation bleeding? Early period?

I tried talking to my boyfriend about it, but he gets REALLY freaked out about menstruation issues.

As it turned out, my period came early.  I don't know why.  10 days is pretty freakin' early if you ask me.        It also turned out that Google and Yahoo really didn't help.  There were no conclusive answers to be found.  In fact, there was a lot of conflicting information.  There are thousands upon thousands of women with period dilemmas posting their questions on the internet. Despite whatever their period issue was about 90% of the women ultimately wanted to know, "Can I be pregnant?"

There must be a better way to get answers about your period?  I really don't like all the guess work.  All i want to know is: Why did my period come early? and Why was I spotting?  It's never happened to me before, so why now?

If you have an opinion on this, please leave a comment.

Surprise Revelation

After three days of tension and arguing with my boyfriend, life seemed to go back to normal.

We were talking again and laughing again. The cold steeliness of his glare had transformed into a warm, loving gaze.

We spent time cuddled on the sofa. We hugged, caressed, and kissed other. It was genuine and affectionate. I felt optimistic that the rough seas of the days before were finally past us. I felt hopeful for days of smooth sailing ahead.

Suzanne came over that evening. My boyfriend, RTC, loves entertaining. He cooked us a gourmet meal. Roast chicken with butternut squash and tomato.

We had red wine, lots of red wine. My boyfriend was at his best: tipsy on red wine, in the company of two beautiful women and enjoying intelligent conversation. He thoroughly enjoyed talking with Suzanne. “She is just so ‘Sex in the City’,” he kept telling me after she left.

He seemed happier than I had seen him in a long while. Maybe it was the wine but he actually agreed to join Suzanne and I on a podcast.

During the recording he was affectionate and articulate. He seemed unguarded in when speaking.

I was stunned when he revealed that we’re hoping for a baby. Suzanne looked over at me at bit surprised. I looked back at her feeling shocked as well. Certainly, that was news to me. I didn’t think we were trying, although we weren’t not trying.

I looked back up at my boyfriend. I felt amazed, surprised and happy. He gave me a kiss on the head “Yes, I definitely want to have a baby with you.”

After the recording, Suzanne left. RTC and I went to bed. I put on my special negligee thinking that we might make love. We crawled in bed together. It was the first time in three days that we’d been in the same bed. It felt great spooning with him again.

It was nearly midnight. I really wanted to make love to him. We were both so tired we collapsed in each others arms and fell fast asleep. We stayed entwined until the morning.

Breed Sex Part 1: They Want to Cum in You.

Breed Sex Part 1: They Want to Cum in You.
Meet the Men Who Want to Knock You up

“Like a good submissive little breeding slut I spread my legs wide and pulled my ass up off the bed so he could plough me hard and deep. I've never been one of those girls that can have multiple orgasms - in fact I'm often lucky if I have an orgasm at all. However, with this breeding I not only came but I came FIVE times.

“He had me up on all fours, his cock slamming into my cervix with each stroke, his cock bare, my pussy fertile, and I couldn't help myself I came as he pounded a huge load of warm sperm into my very eager womb. His cock head was nesting right up against my cervix and I could feel every squirt, every throb, and every little tremor as he pumped me full.

“He kept his cock wedged into my pussy for a few moments - pushing it in slightly and making sure his cum was nice and deep. As his cock slipped out of me, a trail of warm cum dripped down my thighs; I lay on the bed knowing it was possible he had just impregnated me.” – Breeding Female

Of all the subjects within sexuality that I’ve researched; Breed sex AKA Pregnancy Risk Sex has to be the single most fascinating yet morally dubious of them all. There are so many facets to this topic that one article cannot do it justice. This is the first part of a three-part series.

What is Breed Sex?
It’s just sex. It’s heterosexual sex without contraception. It’s having sex for the purpose of procreation. It’s about purposely not using contraception so that the possibility of getting pregnant remains. No contraception is ever used. Pulling out is not an option.

Ironically, Pregnancy Risk Sex isn’t about having children. It’s not about raising children. The child-rearing part is the very last concern. Pregnancy Risk Sex is about using the risk of pregnancy to heighten the sexual experience.

As with most fetishes, the internet caters for large community of like-minded people. There are at least a half of dozen breed sex forums on the web as well as various posts on Craig’s List. For my research I went undercover in the community as a woman wanting to try out breed sex.

Within the breed sex community when a woman announces that she’s ready to ‘breed’ she receives a substantial amount of male attention. Certainly was the case with me. After posting my, “London girl wants breed sex” ad I had received nearly 100 messages. It was bizarre to think that there were that many men in the world who want to knock me up. It made me think that if I legitimately wanted to have a baby on my own I’d never have to go to a sperm bank.
To say the least I received some interesting replies from men wanting to make babies with me.

“I'm a man who loves and craves to fill a pussy full with cum so you’re leaking my cream for days… I'd be always trying to knock u up and not just once. The joy is in sticking around not running off.”
– Breeding Man in Newcastle, UK

“I read your profile, my favourite things is to cum as deep as possible in a pussy, never want to pull out or use birth control but it’s difficult to find women who are into the same risky fun as me. I noticed your post as well, what arrangements are you looking for from the guy in question? Interracial breeding has always been a fantasy of mine also.”
- Breeding Man in Guilford, UK

“Black goddesses preg by white studs is SEXY!! Black goddesses have the natural DNA to make their breasts HUGE, to just be so amazingly sexy when preg!!! You should hit me up.”
- Breeding Man in Germany

Who’s into it?
You’ll find that this is a fetish that both men and women actively engage in. Not surprisingly there are far more men in the scene than women. Generally, the men can be divided into four categories: The Altruists, the Clockbeaters, the Egotists and the Bump lovers.

The Altruists.
These are probably the most unselfish of men from the breed sex community. They derive their joy from giving the gift of life to childless couples or individuals. Their desire to bring kids into the world is so strong that they are willing to forgo the old fashion way of baby making and go for artificial insemination. What’s good about these men? Their hearts are in the right place. What’s not good? Essentially they are low rent sperm donors. Don’t expect any further relationship once the baby is born.

The Clockbeaters.
These guys so hastily want to have kids. I suspect this is because they feel that their biological clocks are running out soon. They are willing to traverse oceans and continents and even relocate in order to find a woman to do this wait. An unfortunate thing about these men is that they come off as wholly desperate. Women can smell desperation a mile away and believe me it’s a foul stench. These guys want kids so badly that they would be willing to have breed sex with any woman. It’s hard to feel special when one of these guys chat you up. What’s good about these guys? They often want long-term relationships. They tend to be the marrying kind. What’s bad about them? All the Clockbeaters I spoke with wanted at least six kids. Part of their impregnation fantasy is to keep the woman in a constant state of pregnancy, churning out one kid after another.

The Egotists
My least favourite of the bunch, the egotists believe that their “seed” is all powerful and can easily knock up any woman. One egotist bragged to me, “I bred a 42 year woman in two months!” My very unscientific diagnosis is that these guys’ egos are way out of control. The way they view the world is through a prism of self-delusion and self-centredness. These men tend to be quite dominant. They view any woman who takes their cum as the ultimate submissive. These men want to get as many women pregnant as possible. Some of these men enjoy only impregnating other men’s wives (without the husband knowing). Some of these men actively sabotage birth control.

Some birth control sabotage tips I was given:

1. Putting baby oil on a latex condom.
2. Puncturing the condom. Apparently you need to put many holes in the condom, not just one.
3. Slipping antibiotics into the girl’s drink; as that makes her pill less effective/ inactive.

What’s good about these men: They are horny as hell. They have extremely high sex drives. What’s bad about them? Where do I start? These guys definitely epitomise “Love ‘em and leave ‘em.”

The Bump Lovers
These men have a fetish for pregnant women. They love the idea of planting their “seed” and watching the woman’s stomach grow and grow. They also fantasise about sucking the milk from a woman’s tit.

“I WANNA PUT A BABY INSIDE YOU
I've always found pregnant women attractive, and fantasized about putting a baby inside a willing partner.

I wanna start by giving you a back massage, then work my way down, then slowly take off your little panties and cuddle up behind you with the tip of my dick in at the opening of you vagina, and I'm going to massage your naughty parts and talk dirty until you beg me to put it in you.

Then I'm going to slip it all the way in so the tip of my penis is touching your uterus, and then I'm going to get on top and start going wild on you, until you start to orgasm, then I'm going to press my body close to yours with my dick in as far as it can go and shoot my load all over your inside.”
– Breeding Male USA

Are you ready to try Breed Sex?
Risk is inherent in breed sex, however, risk exposes you to the plight of sexually transmitted diseases. Having breed sex is an easy way to contract with HIV, Chlamydia, Herpes or most other STDs. Many people in the breed sex community are aware of the risk and have no problem getting themselves tested. Even if you do get the ‘all clear’ the real question is, are you ready to dad or a mum? Ultimately, is it worth the risk?

End part 1.

Next week Breed Sex Part 2: Meet the Cum Whores who want Your Baby

Are You Kidding?

Anjelika, Angelica and Wanda Discuss

- Pregnancy
- Having Kids
- Finding Mr. Right
- Ideal scenarios
- Is it selfish wanting a kid?

"I want a kid, but I don't want it that much." - Wanda